me

2012-02-10T15:41:00.002+08:00

我很好。
偶尔的刮风下雨，还行。

偶尔开心，
偶尔不开心。
还算正常~

对于有些人有些事，
深怀感激感恩。

对于有些人的不解，
无可奈何。

有时怨，
有时恨。
但有时候，
是需要放下的。
为了别人也为自己。

做好份内的事，
时间会证明一切。

我忍，
我等。

可能的那一天。
我希望。

2012-02-09T17:02:00.000+08:00

我们会遇见各种牆。

我们推牆十下、牆也不会倒；

我们推牆百下、牆也不会倒；

我们推牆千下万下、牆还是不会倒。

牆就是不会倒，但我们会因為用力推牆而肌肉强健、變成有力量的人。

牆不倒、不该成为我们自愿当弱者的藉口。。。

- 蔡康永

2012-02-09T09:58:00.002+08:00

I wouldnt say im damn fine, with all kinds of problems arising.
Most of the time, i dont really exactly know what i want too.
Argh, oh wells.

Bad breakfast at work today, shouldnt get too curious with those weird bread.
Bad night sleep due to shit issues.

Sometimes i wonder,
how would different family react so differently to the same issues.
With a open heart and mind,
things should be easier than expected but the main problem is, people tends to focus on their problems instead of standing in others position.
Maybe she is just expecting more, as she feels she sacrifices alot but the facts are, some changes andare inevitable, despite all kind of objection arising.
Cause everything become facts.

I dont normally hate people.
& i dont mean i hate them.
But sometimes i am so confused, what are they expecting and what they expect us to do?
They are not giving us a definite answer, and it just make us floating ard feeling miserable.

I might appear to be very 'dont care'
but somehow i will have the thoughts that thing shouldnt be like that, and i shouldnt even deserve being treated like this.

I can only say im thankful for people who stand by me,
and more thankful that pig is always there when we are in the same boat, or even when maybe he's feeling worse.

(:

2012-01-15T09:31:00.002+08:00

Cant believe i let this space collected webs for so longgggg!

& yupps, no more 2011.
Its already 2012.
HAHA

No more resolutions and reflections like what i used to do in the recent years on my blog,
cos the only resolution is to be SOMEONE BETTER.
I think that somehow covers everything in life.

No more THANKS TO BLAH BLAH..
Cos its in my heart and theres no need to spell it out that obviously.
Guess im getting old (:

But still, there are still a whole lots of ppl which i greatly appreciate despite the lack of meeting and contacting. Im sorry if i left you out of my life somehow as i think that you are not worth my time and effort, which i eventually learnt to let go and yes, i managed to save alot of money and time and effort wastedly spend previously.

Having friends whom you think they are real friends are real hard.
I dont make friend at my workplace, im classify as 'quiet and reserved' by many of the ppl there. Which is somehow, totally off my real character. Im quiet and reserved cos you are not my friend, i understand how the society works. No more innocent i friend you u friend me kind of environment. So yes, i love my friends cos thats me when im with them (:

i pray that 2012 will be a better year ahead,
fingers crossed

2011-10-19T23:56:00.002+08:00

i am still remain jobless! Muhahah!

well, you may say im just pure lazy, which i dont think i will deny.

But im enjoying it too, while looking for another job of cos!

My life isnt perfect.

But i still love it.

My family's great, my close friends're great, my bf's great too.

Totally understand that i wont be able to please everyone, even someone who u tried ur best and ways to get close to and expected to get just a little weeny of acceptance. Afterall, no one like the feeling of being rejected and denied for no reason at all.

But there is limits, i wont be going overboard.

My parent taught me to respect people so that people will respect u too.

& from young, im that polite little girl who will say hello to every uncles and aunties.

I can still proudly say that, I am still doing that.

How you treat others show your own value too.

Its not how big your house is, how great is your car, how much cash u have in your bank, how high is your qualification.

2011-10-01T11:49:00.002+08:00

人心险恶。

我自认我的圈子多是单纯的人，
对于勾心斗角，
我不知，也亦不想知。

我庆幸我的生活是如此。

2011-09-25T16:31:00.002+08:00

im wise when im giving suggestion to friends, but maybe not so when it come to my issues.

Anyway.. in order not to make myself regret giving up too early, i think i will just take a step and see.

I can only cross my finger, hoping everything went on fine.

I need a new job.

some away-from-office job.

2011-09-18T14:36:00.002+08:00

Spent a great day with 2 aiai - shuqi and meimei.

Even though we havent really met for the past 1 year, we are still the same!

It feels so great to know that there are always someone who will stay the same, regardless of the time and the environment we are in.

loved (:

---

It's hard.

& sometime we face the decision to keep on believing, or choose to give up.

2011-08-28T03:21:00.003+08:00

I hate working life. Fullstop.
Do I need to explain further? Haha

I think I'm still not that mature enough to.settle down and enjoy the stable life, which is to work, go home, eat and sleep kind of life. Not for 5 days a week definitely.
I'm still longing for my work and play and missing the freedom I used to have.

Anyway, I'm still trying to get my butt to work everyday for the longest possible time lol.

Things have been.changing..
The environment we are in, the situations we are facing, and even the feeling between us and within us.
I have no idea abt how long it gonna last, but I believe in being happy when there is the opportunity.
It's not difficult to stay together.
We just have to do nothing, and remains how.we are, acting ignorance of the changes.
But the harsh part is to stay at least, happy.

I don't think everything still.make a point if we are unhappy, no matter how hard we tried and how many times we meet.

Frankly, I dunno what's the position of us currently.
We just have to follow the tides.
There's a lot of things that resulted to this, but I guess we have already passed the stage whereby I have to repeat the cycles again and again.
For what I can accept, I accepted.
For those I can't, I compromised the best I could.
It's.not.giving up, at least, not yet for now.
Just being acceptance toward everything.
I still appreciate having you in my life, that's the reason for all the efforts.
But, there is a limit to everything still.

One step at a time.

2011-08-06T02:19:00.002+08:00

Before I know it, uni actually started even before I realised it.

Anyway, I'm quite glad that I'm kinda of adaptive to diff environment, even though I'm leaving SingTel, there are lots of nice peoples I knew who helped me a lot. :)

After been through so much, I don't feel that you will keep in touch with all the humans that you once knew, xia that life. There are different peoples appearing in different phrases of life. But, I treasure those who make it through different phrases.

Some friends are just worth remembering, maybe you are not the closest, nor you are the bestest. But its whatever that we been through that make a differences, which somehow, can't be replaced.

Like how I spent my primary sch w Lim's.
How I fight o level w wanting.
How I play like crazy in jc and fool ard w Sharon.
All the traveling and complaining w minwei and serene.
All the dramama things that happened with Weiting and laoren.

They all make a impact.

No matter how seldom we keep in contact,
You all are loved by me! :)

2011-07-10T18:37:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, you need to show small gestures and actions to prove to me that you really care, but the truth is, you didn't ever bother to try.
That's what making thing even more miserable.

Action speaks louder than words.

That something even a primary school kid knows.
But you dunno, I don't need you to write me 10 msg telling me how sorry you are, why can't u just bloody give me a call each day when you have the free time when your family takes up our time.
I don't need you to call me hundreds of times and spend 3 hours telling me what you had did the whole day, but why can't you give a call which last less than 5 minutes.

Things are easier den you thought to be, if you ever make the effort to try your way out.

& the fact is that u didn't..

2011-07-01T22:59:00.002+08:00

i kinda like the thoughts that i got no more visitor on the blog cos it mean giving myself more space.

Anyway, the first half of the year has gone, like wind~~

& i guess it's time i start doing something about my life. Yes, i had enjoyed my freedom to spend money while working very minimum just to earn enough bucks to have fun.

I am starting my first full time job, like finally.

I confess that i dun really have the best of friend whereby we cant live without contacting each other everyday, but i have a bunch of friends whereby someone will always be there when i need someone. I appreciated when they really show concern when they asked, because i really hate it when people come asking what happened just for the sake of curiosity and in short, its just pure KPO. -.-

2011-06-24T12:20:00.002+08:00

人比人，气死人。

为什么不能为自己拥有的而高兴，反而要拿别人有的和自己的做比较?

人总是需要别人的鼓励，
不是别人的埋怨，别人的落井下石。

可能他真的做的不够好，
但不要无视他的努力和他的尽力。

每一次的埋怨，都像是一双把人推开的手。
要放开怀，才看得到好的东西。。
:)

2011-06-20T03:01:00.002+08:00

Sometime I hope you will do something, but you never did.
Sometime I hope you will understand someday, but you never did.
Sometime I hope things will just get better, and it doesn't.
Sometime I hope maybe someday I will learnt to accept, but I can't.

I guess that's all the empty hopes which created a.situation like this now.

All the disappointment, frustration and everything combined.
Now its becoming something huge, which I sometime doubt my ability to handle, and our abiltiy to make things right.

I knew it coming.
And somehow I thought u knew it too.

I tried finding a balance in between,
But you rather escape then facing it.

Future is unknown.
Not wanting to give up, but when it has become a must.
I will.

2011-06-09T12:42:00.002+08:00

I am kinda stuck in between choices and it kinda suck.
I hate changes, like now.

I have to admit that im lost and confused.
but not to worry, i have my plans ahead, somehow.

Of course i know its bad to be extremely stubborn, but too bad that im like that.
'Follow your heart' is one of the most contradicting phrase i ever heard when reality and heart meet.

Anyway, yeah, i had graduated from the 3 years of horror and fears. All the not-so-meaningful-projects and scare-the-shit-outta-me-presentations. But i thanks guanyingma for all the great peeps i know.

I guess at least i fulfiled what my ah gong wanted me to do, but not yet.
I think one of the reasons that i insisted that i want and will continue my studies in university is my ah gong.
He always wanted me to study well and get a degree.
I will, someday and somehow.

come to say that,
i never never expect that he will be gone before my 21st birthday.

i love the weather now.
i miss you hell lots.
& i remember how you always smiled (:

2011-06-07T02:54:00.003+08:00

I hope it will just come to an end.

It's damn difficult, cos it will just flashed through my mind whenever or wherever i am.

Guess the blow over the 2 days was really too great that i can hardly forget the emotions i experienced, even till now.

But I know we must let go, in order to move on.

It's either letting go of the grudges, or letting each other off.

For now, we want the former.

Yes, we're trying, hard.

hmmm~

以为自己很洒脱，

但事实却不是那么如此。

说总比做起来容易。

我退了一步，因为我愿意在试一次，

因为我觉得你值得，

因为我觉得还有可能。

并不是因为我可以忍受，也不可能会忘记。

人总要痛过，才会成长。

这一课，我学到了，

也更认清自己。

这会是，

最后一次。

2011-05-09T23:42:00.002+08:00

life is just so contradicting..

sometime you think that letting go is a better way of settling thing, with lesser troubles and conflicts and negatives feeling welling up your life. But o the other hand, while letting go settle some problems, it will directly affects your life. Maybe less laughter, less happiness and lesser smile.

It's like either way is not going to be the best part of the story.
FML

2011-05-05T02:20:00.003+08:00

It's all about the GE news all ard Singapore, my dad and my uncle have been 'lecturing' me about the issues like GST and housing and foreign talents and everything.

I have to say good try. But nahssssss, im not convince HAHAHA.

I kpo-ly clicked on some links and videos on rallies, totally cant believe so many Singaporeans are cheering for opposition parties, okay, actually nothing wrong but i find it funny when the opposition is blaming PAP for the flooding in Orchard last year. And i flipped today's newspaper and saw PM Lee apologizing for the flooding.

Can someone tell me.. what's fault is there? LOL
It's the weather thingy and its not like it happen EVERYDAY.
& this is being brought up during election.

So it means, opposition parties can actually avoid the flood? by.... stopping the rain? LOL!!

My uncle get very worked up when he mention about the housing price. He insisted that we, the younger generation will have to pay for our flats until we die or even not able to afford one because the pricing now is too high as compared to their generation.

whatever it is... i am so glad that i dont have to vote this year but im kinda of concern about the GE result. I dont wan some can-talk-very-nicely-but-do-nothing the ppls being elected.
& i kinda of convinced my parent that in our area, PAP is better. Cos we get our lifts our shelters our pathways all nicely built. & WE WANT OUR NEW TOLIET!!

'LATER CHANGE GARMENT LIAO THEY DUN HELP US CHANGE OUR TOLIET HOW? YOU GOT MONEY TO RENOVATE ISIT???'

i think this form the best reason for my parent to vote the PAP back LOL

so ya.. im even grateful for the growth dividend!!! WOOHOO
:D

2011-04-24T11:31:00.002+08:00

i think it's Easter Day today, not very sure.

But whatever..

Went to Lijing's baptism and before that have to attend their church service.

Eons since i stepped into a church.

I have been kinda of lost on what i wants to do.

& yes, i still trying to make a decision currently, at the same time, i will just follow each step and see how it goes.

I applied for school, have to wait for letter, then i will try asking for loan.

If failed, i will just have to go work for the time beingggg..

---

some friends are meant to last longer than others,

while some others just wont.

like i say, i dont make time for people who dont make time for me.

Busy is not going to be a reason.

& dont expect me to keep on trying, cos i wont.

it's the 1year5mth day ytd.

after so long, each month past is not gg to be a woohoo matter anymore.

but still,

thanks for everything.

its never been easy for these few months..

just hope everything will turn better.

loveyou<3

2011-04-18T00:13:00.003+08:00

something are meant to be solve at the start, when you failed to do so.. it just get harder. i wont dare to say i did alot alot. but well, i dare to swear that i did whatever i can or at else, i tried to make changes to issues that you dont agree, thinking that it's will make thing better. But somehow, im making some mistakes in doing so. As time goes, everything are treated for granted. Just because i choose to step back in the beginning, doesnt mean im willing and i have to continue doing so. At the same time, all the shitty things from you continues.. because i gave in and it make you think that nothing's wrong. the main problem is that you dun even noe what's wrong, and even i speak up, you think its not a problem at all. i get pissed off. oh well~

2011-04-14T01:42:00.002+08:00

life is never fair.

and yes, i gonna admit its unfair.

someone get to do things that they like, while some are not able to.

im not going to blame anyone because that's life.

at least i have a peace of mind that i tried all ways, and my best trying to get what i want.

But when its time to face the reality, i will. & i have to.

However, it's not easy giving up that.

That's the goal and what i want, it's like so near, but at the same time becoming further.

It's get me depressed when i realised the reality, as no matter what, i really really want to do that.

I am so used to be independent.

i sort out my problems, find out all the possibilities, know my choices, have a decision all by myself.

i end up being all alone and cant stop thinking about it.

it's nice to have someone who insisted on holding on the phone when i refused to talk much.

to have someone who willing to hear me rants and complain about the same matter again and again.

to have someone trying to sort out your confused mind.

& its even nicer to have someone who able to make you laugh and smile even during times like this.

& yes, it help somehow.

thanks pig <3

.things that dont kill me, gonna make me strong.

2011-04-07T01:00:00.002+08:00

It's funny how human can forgive, but not forget. I am somehow guilty also. I admit that i am one of those who choose to forgive ppl, but not forget about the shit that others had done to me. While i use it to make people guilty by mentioning it times and times, i end up hurting myself when i force myself to face the past again and again and again. I know it sound utterly dumb, but well.. can't help it at all.

2011-04-03T22:46:00.002+08:00

I am totally in love with HongKong dramas and i cant stop chasing them.

Just finish chasing 摘星之旅.

I find some of the things it mentioned was really quite meaningful.

-----

life's like a drama.

im not really sure whether i love it,

i dont like surprises, especially unpleasant one.

but maybe these are ones which remind you of what really matters.

but still,

i believe in giving chances, to a certain extent.

For now,

i believe in whatever i have been hearing and seeing or even, feels.

that's why i choose to step back and retrieved my trust, even though its not that complete anymore.

hope.

2011-03-16T11:47:00.002+08:00

if i can turn back time..

i will stop u that night, and that moment, when ure still hesitating.

i will be alit more selfish and stubborn and hold you back.

but i didnt.

& i kinda of regretted it, now.

it's the differences i never expected

& my unexpected level of detest towards it.

i tried my best to accept it, on the surface,

at least to the extent that it doesnt affect us.

but somehow, i suck at hiding my emotions.

sometimes, it's just too much.

too many stuff that triggered that button of mine,

which i tried to hide.

2011-03-15T01:09:00.003+08:00

life's hard.

it's even harder to please everyone and all sides.

i understand.

but human are contradicting creatures,

everything become weird when what you think is fighting with what you feel.

getting the balance,

is almost impossible

at least for now.

2011-03-07T13:26:00.002+08:00

working in USS is damn siannnnnn already LOL
thinking of finding another job,
but hell, i hate interviews and job hunting lol

thinking of getting a full time job, cos the pay is higher..
but hell, i hate commitment LOL

anyway i think i shld just relax for a little more while =x

gg kukup this weekend.
know totally nothing abt the place LOL

roarrrr
im bored ):

2011-02-23T02:06:00.001+08:00

你的手机又收不到
我像疯子在街上绕
努力跑你的温度
雨淋过几条街都散不掉

你面无表情的嘴角
像在嘲笑我的胡闹
回头看突然明了
爱过了使用期效你就想逃

我想维持礼貌忘记骄傲
继续做你唯一的城堡

习惯就好习惯就好
是我选择看不到分手预兆
没有一丝睡意的困扰无法治疗
习惯就好习惯就好
我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我多一秒

--
习惯就好

2011-02-21T14:16:00.002+08:00

okay im so sian by report writing.
USS is such a new and young company & apparently, there are not much info about them yet.
It's not my problem.
Serene and Minwei are feeling that too.

& yes, deadline is tml.
IM SO DEAD.

-----

i guess im kinda of getting used not smsing the whole day,
since the one im sms-ing is always that busy.

it's just like 2 different world.

i'm still a student and working part time is just for allowances,
and money to play and slack ard with friends.

while you're working.
working as a career.

pardon me if i am not that understanding sometime.
cos i someime i really dont understand.
hmmmm..
that's abt it (:

-----------
ohs god report -.-

2011-02-20T00:52:00.001+08:00

drfited from writing report and end up reading my old blog post from 2009.

realised im so much happier,
and so much busier meeting friends and doing all kind of different thing.
HAHA.

2011-02-20T00:14:00.002+08:00

kind of miss those days we spend whole day together,
just slacking away.
instead of meeting just for a dinner.

but well,
it's all about moving on, i guess.

just need sometime to adapt to it.
hopefully.

2011-02-16T00:54:00.001+08:00

会不会有一天四季全变成夏天
是不是这样你才会相信有永远
看你靠着我的肩刚刚睡着的侧脸
白日不断在我心里蔓延
　　
　　* 爱上你第一个夏天你就问我爱会不会变
　　如果你想要去冒险我会不会给你一片天
　　你说爱情也许没有想象的永远
　　才会有人忙着说再见
　　
　　* 爱上你第一个夏天我就想给你整个世界
　　想带你一起去冒险想跟你一起接受考验
　　我的爱情并没有你想象的善变
　　只是全都放在心里面
　　
　　你不需要再跟别人去争奇斗艳
　　在我心里你永远是最美的夏天
　　不管季节怎么变我都会在你身边
　　爱你听你把你给宠上天
　　
　　* 爱上你第一个夏天我就唱给你整个世界
　　带你一起去冒险想跟你一起接受考验
　　也许爱情比你想象中的还遥远
　　只要你愿意在我身边
　　
　　
　　* 我会陪你一直到永远

2011-02-13T00:54:00.001+08:00

thinking too much..
doesnt help.

i just failed to convince myself, yet.
at the same time,
you fail to convince me too.

i tried.

oh wells.

2011-02-08T23:05:00.002+08:00

For goodness sake, im left with 3 days. OFFICIALLY as an interns at USS.
Im kinda of sick of all the politics and everything.
I dont see why they cant just WORK and stop backstabbing peoples.

& i cant understand why someone can just totally ignore what she's suppose to do, and only cared for herself, slacking around in the office all day claiming that she's doing her paperwork, when it only takes me less than half an hour to finish it.

seriously hates being an intern.
i cant voice out what im thinking,
unable to request for anything,
and still lanlan have to accept everything that are assigned to me, no matter how unwilling i am.
but whatever, it's going to end soon.

thanks guanyingma.

2011-02-05T23:13:00.002+08:00

dont say sorry when you dont mean it.

u can say that im petty,
u can say that im unreasonable.

but whatever,
if you think u cant do it,
den just say it.

not giving me lame reasons and sorry just to shut my mouth.
& giving me empty promises

最不可原谅的，
是明知故犯。

2011-01-31T23:14:00.002+08:00

i dislike changes.
changes in my life,
changes in other people's life, but directly affecting mine.
esp those dear to me.

changes in my dictionary means unknowns.
unknown of what going to happen in the future,
what will it be like in the future,
and how much will it affect us.

i hate guessing, and feeling insecure.

but well..
even thou i like things to stay the way i feel comfortable with.
but changes in life is inevitable.
shall learn to accept it
and one of the best thing i have is being able to adapt to changes,
despite how much i hate them.

oh wellsss~~~

2011-01-29T23:25:00.002+08:00

maybe it's the weather..
was not in my best mood recently.

anyway.. long time since i update (:
life is still as mundane as ever~

peoples come and go..
i understand and i had accepted it.

as i get older,
i get abit more selfish den before
i rather do things which will make me happy,
doing things that i enjoy,
meeting friends which i feel comfortable with.
no more forcing myself.

life is never a bed of roses

2011-01-15T02:20:00.001+08:00

终于，找到这本书。
喜欢陶晶莹。
喜欢她的文字。

10.女人心事
作词:陶晶莹作曲:陶晶莹/黄韵玲编曲:黄韵玲

东区的咖啡座幽暗的沙发里
总有几张熟悉的脸
那种聪明带点防卫的气质
想放弃却又不甘心的样子
越过她的肩膀空洞洞的视线
摩登女子灰色心事
那种以为自己什么都可以
喝了酒却又哭得像个孩子
我听见(爱我的人在哪边)渴望的泪
我看见(伤心的故事一遍遍)我的从前
曾经我也痛过我也恨过怨过放弃过
在自己的房间里觉得幸福遗弃我
如果没有分离背叛的丑陋
怎么算是真爱过
请你试著相信一爱再爱不要低下头
别怕青春消逝就不信单纯的美梦
我在这岸看着你游
为你的坚持感动
你会的有一天会幸福的

<3

2011-01-12T23:57:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY ROOSEVELT TAN WEISHEN aka PIG
Like what i wished you last year, u had used up all your bad luck!
Good to see you playing your favourite sports and no more emo-ing (:

Stay happy. stay cheerful. stay cute. stay healthy. ALWAYS.

i always failed to get my leave i wanted to for special occasions, screw internship -.-
but yeah, at least he's celebrating with his friends now.

Got to work on ur birthday & unable to pei you on the actual day)):
but stillllll,

happy birthday dar.
Love you <3<3!>

2011-01-09T22:44:00.002+08:00

A few of my friends get attached!!
Happy for them eh (:

sick of my job, seriously.
but kinda of glad that the ppl there are nice and fun to be with..
make my 9.5 hours there so much easier.
BLAHS.

Managed to meet Minwei after night event and met serene for dinner this week (:

不是生气，
只是对于太多的未知数感到~ 无奈。
那些不是三言两语可以被抚平。
不是不相信，而是不敢相信。
‘期望越高，失望越多’
-- 可能自我保护意识在作祟。

2011-01-01T02:10:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEARRRR!!! (:

Cant believe it's already 2011~

一年又过去了~

已想不起在这365天里做了什么，发生了什么事。

但回头想想，

对于一切的一切，

是好是坏，

还是感恩的。

thanks for everything that happened in 2010.

&&&

BYE 2010!!!!!!!!!!!!

---

its kind of routine for thanking time (:

thanks to Minwei and Serene! Great that we selected the same workplace for internship. & thanks for all the accompany to school for 3 years!

thanks to women, laoren and thong, who will never forget to contact each other & are always there whenever i need someone to talk to (:

thanks to tian, LJ and MX. 12 years of friendship is like damn cool. Love all the makan outings once in a while (:

thanks to my cousins and sister. Love bullying them and being with them. That's the kind of bonding between us that will never change no matter after how many years. We are still the 5 kids playing ard (:

thanks to pig who will always be there whenever i need someone to talk to and discuss matters. thanks for accepting who i am and always be the one who give in to me. (:

thanks to my family who always show care and concern. (:

thanks to my ahgong, who being with me for 19 years and i believe he still do watch after me from above.

yupps.

thanks to all my friends and whoever and whatever that had happened in 2010.

Edited//

2010-12-25T22:51:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas!

I spent my 2010 xmas at work, worrying about the lack of manpower, complaining about the large crowd, listening to the walkie-talkie cum radio, changing the wait time board, opening and closing the queue line and BLAHS! LOL

We are 6 days to 2011..
gosh how time flies..
& i cant really remember what had really happened this year.. i kinda of mixed up all the timelines.

oh wells~~~

MERRY XMAS STILL! =p

2010-12-23T23:06:00.002+08:00

Xmas is like so near! But i can hardly feels it.
RWS gave us treats for xmas, cookies, chocolates, sweets etc.
Quite cute eh?

I will always jump with joy when i get to see minwei and deariee at workplace..
it's like seeing a lifebuoy in the middle of the big wide sea.
Afterall, i know them for about 3 years and went thru all the project periods.
Awww, i miss them already~

and yes,
we are less than 2 months to the end of my internship.
I dont hate my job, seriously.
I've got to know many nice peoples from ACC and BSG (:
they make life there so much easier with all the jokes and assistances they given to me.
But somehow, i'm just getting tired.
Tired of travelling to and fro which take me more den 2 hrs.
Tired of missing time with my loved family and friends.

‘辛苦了，幸福就来了’。
--爱情折扣

有时你的不谅解与不了解，
比给予我的期望，
还要沉重。

2010-12-02T22:06:00.002+08:00

i think im weird, sometimes..
cos i can be extremely easy to please,
at the same time..
be extremely unreasonable sometimes.

maybe i need to knock some sense in me.
the real & true self.
instead of being overly touchy over the slightest things -.-
that's just so NOT me.

& i dont deny that i kinda of detest it.
- please in control

2010-11-25T21:41:00.002+08:00

everyone at my workplace are asking me things like 'are you going to continue ur studies in uni?',
'are you going to stay here as a full timer?', 'what you wanna do in future?' etc etc~
And it's like wth-ly not very fun to keep answering these questions cause seriously..
even myself dont have the answer YET!
frankly speaking, im sick of studying.. BLAHS.
but having a diploma cert is like nothing for now.. -.-

i have to admit that im a different person when im working and the real me when im with my friends.
im more straightforward and direct with my friends.
rolling my eyes and diao them when i feel like LOL.
but at work.. i tends to smile at my colleagues even thou inside me.. im like wth -.-
LOL
i think working full time now make me understand abit more about human nature since i have to face the same old faces almost everyday.
someone actually told me that one should not believe others so easily.
i think that's one of my weakness.
cause i tend to see everyone as NICE person until that person show his/her tail.
and by that time.. maybe it's too late?
one of the uncle there told me it's all about exposure.
the more people you get to interact, the more u will be able to identify who is the nice one and who are the one that you should build your defence wall from him/her.
see..
that's the darkness in adult's world =x

2010-11-18T22:16:00.002+08:00

dislikes.

negative feelings shall all go away~

hate it when it mess up everything.

cant help but feels..

tired,

confused,

sick,

& everything.

---

shooshooo.

2010-11-17T23:24:00.002+08:00

time flies when ure at home!
yuppss, love today's weather (:
& it's my off day, && dont have to go out ((:
double love HAHAS

Rainy days recently~
which is bad..
i need to wear wet socks and wet shoes the whole day.
the feeling sucks.
and it's damn cold >.<

i cant believe that i walked all the way from woodlands interchange to my home sweet home.
walkable distance~ just kinda of far..
but well, just feel like walking alone
time alone (:
and the weather's great today..
:D

8am tml~
and gosh i have to wake up at abt 530am to be on time.
O.M.G

2010-11-15T22:38:00.002+08:00

im tired ):
i've got quite alot to grumble about but welllllll~~

i dont really like responsibility..
and i hate it when in the reality world.. it's not about whether you like it or not.
but rather, it's what ure expected to do and what you have to do.
even thou there are times whereby it's against your will. -.-

but what to do?
life suck.
& this is one of the many reasons why life suck.

i miss my friends.
i miss pig.

2010-11-13T23:26:00.002+08:00

思考。
有时候反而会想得太多，想得太远。
没有所谓的好与不好，
只是偶尔会增加自己的烦恼。

但是有些事也并不是你不想就不存在，
暂时不想，暂时不管，暂时不提，暂时遗忘。。
只为了现在的宁静和平静。。
不想把现在的一切搞乱了。

只是
以后呢？

有些事不说，
因为不知从何说起，
因为不知道如何开口。。
并不是不在乎，
更不是因为它不重要。。

暂时。。
就这样吧~

2010-11-10T22:35:00.002+08:00

i realised i had been spending most of my time with my family and pig..
but there is nothing i can do much with my 2 days off per week.
i kinda lost track of what my friends are doing anymore cos i am too tired to chat on msn after work most of the time.
and i am too tired to take the initiative to contact ppl also. >.<
so well~~~
have to squeeze squeeze time >.<

i've got a very bad habit at work LOL
i will just roll my eyes after i encountered some not-very-pleasant guests =x
yeah~ and some guests who are just behind them will witness my eyes-rolling and smile at me >.<
whatever.. i need to show my emotions, somehow.
im so used to my plastic smile while working.
cheerios to myself.

finally i get to spend my off day rotting at home which is what i sometime hope to do so instead of spending time outside.
but poor pig have to come over to pei me on his off day instead of going out.
hee so nice of him
lovehim (:
<333

it's working day tml!
awww sadded ):

2010-11-02T23:40:00.002+08:00

YAYYYY tml is my off day :D
anyway~~ work as usual~~

i dont hate my job thou it can get tiring at times.
there are lots of nice nice ppls which make everyday somehow abit more fun and easy to get by (:

and yupps..
sometime lots of thing just change even before you get to realise it.
but u will just know it.. eventually~
im not going to take things too hard now,
& i've got no extra energy to do so.
lets just see how.

Anyway im kinda of happy to see tian w her mum @ causeway.
I tagged along to visit jaysea oso at the petshop.
saw lots of cuttie dogsssss omg <3
laopengyouisloved (:

okay.
gtg now.
slpyyyy~ =p

2010-10-23T21:25:00.002+08:00

time flies..
today is my ah gong death anni according to the lunar calendar..
and we actually had a ritual today.

Just last year, at the same place..
it was a really really really sad day.
after a year,
we are getting back to our daily life..
but he's alway missed by us.

i believe he's now happily up there looking at us,
resting in peace.

but i miss him alot, like always.

------

11 months.
i cant really define whether it's long or short.
but at least i can say that we went thru quite a couples of things within this 11 months.
and i thanks god that with you,
everything kinda become alittle more easy to get thru.
from family matters, friendship prob, school matters to work matters.

i noe that im kinda of stubborn at times,
not willing to give in when we quarrel,
not willing to show my emotions.
but thanks for giving in, and tolerating me.

there's lot of small little thing u did which meant alot to me..
such as helping out at my ah gong's gongtek today..
even though i never really tell u.

iloveyou, pig. <3
happy 11th month.
(:

2010-10-21T22:16:00.002+08:00

after 6 days from my last off day, i finally having my long waited off day again HAHAS
im still coughing which had lasted for more than a week.
it's damn irritating, i tried refraining eating some of my favourite food like cold drinks, ice cream chocolates and all, hoping it will get better.
but.. NOOOOO it doesnt. -.-
so i gave up today and start eating them HAHA.

Been part of the RWS MOU with many other interns.
Had fun!! (:
& OMG im interviewed by 958 and my face on lianhezaobao.
damn funny! LOL

its gonna be 1 year..
i miss my ah gong.
HAIS.

2010-10-13T22:28:00.002+08:00

Cant believe that i fell sick twice after starting my internship for barely a month.
Worked on Monday despite the stupid cough and trust me, it feel HORRIBLE -.-

MC for 2 days, which one of it fall on my off day..
so i get to rest for 3 days this week which somehow it's a good thing.

i manage to meet thong and laoren today.
HAPPY! (:
miss them loads, esp the days in school when we always get to meet so easily lo!

& pig permed his hair LOL!
actually doesnt look much different to me la =p
but at least he get his hair trimmed.
Instead of trying to control my diet cos im sick~~
he tempted me with ice cream waffle and deep fried wonton zzz
haha so cute LOL <3

2010-10-05T22:21:00.003+08:00

OH YEAH~
it's my OFF DAY TML :D
i had been waiting for this day since the day i start work after my previous off day ( like always)

anyway..
im being pangseh by pig since last Sunday when he happily went malaysia for holiday w his parent, while i very poor thing need to go work every morning.

Speaking about work.......
it's getting mundane when i can easily know what to do (:
but well.. people there are quite nice..
thank goodness :D

and i just read minwei's blog and she pointed out something which i just realised yesterday!!
which is that i started to smile at everyone who is looking at me~ which is also happening to minwei. LOL
It's kind of profession sickness or what.
whatever it is a fake smile or a genuine smile.. i stil think im quite weird -.-

AND i am so used to say THANK YOU in such a lively and excited tone that i just shocked the mama shop uncle after buying ice cream from him when i said THANK YOU!!! as if the he gave me a free ice cream.

i went home w one of my colleague today..
im so used to going home myself that i totally forgotten her.
i just chiong my way to MRT after alighting the shuttle bus until she managed to catch me and tap me on my shoulder asking 'are you rushing for time?'
like seriously, i wanted to say YA cos u noe.. it's already 745pm and im still at some far far away land which make me panic and all LOL.

OH WELLS!
lee hong ki got chinese song OMG
he's damn cute.

ok CIAOS :D

2010-10-01T00:38:00.002+08:00

im finally back to blogging after so long.

wake up, squeeze on mrt, work and wait for breaks, eat and sleep.
that's what i did everyday
for your info, i will tend to slp even before 12am.
not to even mentioning using my laptop.
so it wil just remain there collecting dust for 5 days a week until my precious 2 days off day

missed out quite a few gathering cos my working day is like REST DAY to others.
that's sad.
and i feel damn lifeless sometime.

i miss thong and laoren and ivy alr ):

i get quite grumbly over time cos of anything and everything.
thanks pig for listening and bearing w it. LOL
and accompany me by sms when work (:
and also doesnt mind me when i just fall aslp while smsing (:

oh ya.
result day tml. OMG

and my report not done
GG -.-

2010-09-22T23:31:00.003+08:00

Internship started this monday..

ANYWAY
i hate hate taking MRT during peak hours.
its damn CROWDEDDDDDD
hate squeezing w people.

cant imagine when i really start working at USS instead, which is this friday.
it's like damnnnnn farrrrrrr
OMG

and i have to wake up like damn early..
as early as the time i wake up for secondary sch.
ARGHHHHH.

if only complains help -.-

SUNDAY!

2010-09-19T03:08:00.002+08:00

It's Sunday already OMG
See, time ROCKET-ED

Anyway met pig yesterday and bought chocolate AGAIN
now i got 4 big packets of hershey chocolate
& i ate my frolick yogurt also
LOVESSS <33

Internship starts TML!!
It's kinda of predictable that it's not gonna be easy, cos it's internship, not working.
SoOoo, no complaining, not skipping of work, no talking back to superiors, no taking of leave as and when i like.
& no more sms w pig & thong ):
AWWWWWWW!

but i think I CAN SURVIVE YA! (:
guanyingma will look after me de HAHAHAAA

2010-09-17T17:54:00.002+08:00

totally hooked onto hebe's new song!!
very niceeeeeee song (:

田馥甄-《寂寞寂寞就好》

還是原來那個我不過流掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾遲早我會還這張臉一堆笑容
不算什麼愛錯就愛錯
早點認錯早一點解脫

我寂寞寂寞就好這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了想到快瘋掉
死不了就還好
我寂寞寂寞就好你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了賴著不放掉
人本來就寂寞的借來的都該還掉
我總會把你戒掉

還是原來那個你是我自己做夢你有改變什麼
再多的愛也沒用每個人有每個人的業障因果
會有什麼什麼都沒有
早點看破才看得見以後

死不了就還好

("

2010-09-17T04:14:00.002+08:00

It's like 4 plus in the morning!
& im still wide awake OMGGG.
i guess i have been slping too much during daytime LOL.

Anyway, changed my blogskin LIKE AGAIN.
i like everything except the PINKY WORDS and HEARTS -.-
but im too lazy to change anything. so forget it.

Pink is one of the NONO.
but it's damn contradicting that my house is completely in PINK.
light pink dark pink
GOSH PINKY -.-
my mum claimed that the colour of my room is LIGHT PURPLE.
but after facing the walls for months, i still think that it's pink.

I've got lots of chocolates storing in my kitchen <333

okay.
SLPING TIME.
CIAOS

2010-09-17T01:50:00.004+08:00

很多时候，
人都只在乎自己看得到的，
自己知道的，
忽略了别人在你背后所做的一切。

awww
ily.

2010-09-16T01:51:00.002+08:00

tonned at airport w laoren wt and xy on monday.

almost died LOL.

i think laoren thong and me are damn funny when we're together.

we ate mac bf @ 430am HAHA

sent sharlene off to china at about 6 plus.

pig and me managed to catch a 3 hrs nap in coffee bean, it's very noisy. But we're too tired to care.

Went kbox w ivy and thong oso.

laoren and that gaosai problems is gonna over VERY SOON. *claps*

4 days to internship.

seriously, im not looking forward zzz

i rather rot at home and go out everyday.

okay, it's very lazy but.. HAIYAAAAA!

realised had been with pig everyday since last thursday as we always meet after a few hours.

awwwww..

he's back to work after being sick for the past 2 days.

missinghimalready.

love receiving a call before sleep, even thou it's only a few sentences and few minutes <3

okay.

i beri sian liao

CIAOS

2010-09-13T00:00:00.004+08:00

YAYYYY!
Exam finished and back from genting!

Thursday after exam, went meet pig.
travel around and join thong laoren and sharlene they all at indochine.
walked all ard and finally settled at kbox, since someone offered to pay half of the bill =p
tonned the whole night and went st8 to board the coach at 6am.
pig and me completely KO-ed the whole 6 hours plus journey,
we were only awake for toilet breaks and breakfast LOL

anyway~
genting was DAMN CROWDED cos it's holiday
but gosh.. it's still TOO CROWDED >.<
managed to enter the casino somehow =p
HAHAHA
the security officiers spent about 5 mins looking at pig and me, and they finally give up and jus let us in.
but i seriously think gambling is BAD!!~
and i hate ppl who gamble -.-

so i just went in walk ard to pass time and take in all the horrible 2nd hand smoke.
i ALMOST DIED

it's more like eating and sleeping trip LOL
we eat and went back hotel to nap awhile before going out den we go back napped awhile again den we go dinner LOL.
we spent RM75 on ICE CREAM.
and most of our money on food.

<3 my family~~
though it was a short and simple trip (:
& i love pig getting along so well w my family oso. <3
but of cos the main thing is that my family are all friendly ppl.
LOL

2010-09-08T14:29:00.002+08:00

omg omg omg! last paper tml!!
got very distracted by my holiday mood and the cooling weather >.<

anyway, met up with pig yesterday evening (:
& saw irene jiaqi jingwen at amk LOL
they claimed that they managed to 'caught' me.. but i always go to amk hub lei! LOL

Lots of shops selling mooncakes and lanterns recently..
my ah gong used to buy lanterns and lots of candles for me to burn and play.
yeah.. i miss the piggy mooncake in basket which he always buy for me to collect.
but awwwwww~

ROARRR! just more paper to goooooo!
& i will be off to genting w my dearest family and pig <33333

2010-09-05T19:46:00.002+08:00

omg RMTR paper tml -.-
im so not prepared for it even though i had flipped the lecture notes for countless time, somehow the words and contents in the notes just dont get through my brain. THIS IS BAD >.<
I think most probably because the content does not really make sense to me -.-
i wan go baibai and hug my guanyingma leg later so that she will bobi me for the next 4 days.
(:

anywayyyyys~
i hate staying homeeeeeeeeeeee roarrrr especially to study. T.T

anywayyyyyss~~~
i feel like eating frolick!!~
okay very randommm..
but it's damn nice LOL

okay very sadly, i have to go back to notes -.-
i can smell it!
4 daysssssss!

2010-09-01T00:10:00.002+08:00

heex
laoren's back from CHINA~~
like finallyyyy!~

Had been smsing thong and gosh she sound so super excited about tml lunch and her iphone, which she call it holy 4 LOL.
I was kinda tempted to buy one also after playing with my cousin's iphone.
pretty nice i would sayyyy.. but haiya!!~
shall see how first hahahas.

Laoren called me this evening while i was napping, when i should be studying -.- but ohwells..
she talk with her chinese accent and you know, people who got disturbed from their dream tends to be a lit easier to get irritated.
esp when She refused to tell me who she is when i SERIOUSLY cannot recognise her voice with that accent.. i almost scolded her HAHAHAHA!
But well.. it's nice to have her back singapore!!!!
gonna laugh at her tml cos she sound damn cheena now LOL.

argh..
exam is so SICK. zzzz

2010-08-31T00:34:00.003+08:00

Oh my, before i can managed to convince myself that i have to get down to study, it's about 1 week to my 1st paper already. & i am still happily in my holiday mood, i can barely feel any stress which is really bad >.<

I just stocked up my house with junk foods =p
snickers, hello panda, dove chocolate, kitkat~~~
& hide it somewhere higher den the eye level of my 2 sisters, so they cant find it and cant eat LOL

arghhhhhhh..
according to my sister, it's 11 days to Genting!!~~
and gosh.. 7 days to RMTR paper -.-

2010-08-28T01:20:00.002+08:00

I think weiting and me damn funny LOL.
our conversation on sms and facebook oso v funny.
HAHAHAHA

Pig cooked Katsu Don.
very niceeeee but ermm.. the preparation is so damn troublesome. So i rather just eat den cook =p
Tried making cheesecake also.
I think it kinda pass la cos it tasted and look absolutely like a cheesecake.
Just that it's super omgly sweet and thick with cheese.
hahas. not bad not bad.

argh. i hate exam ):
i haven started >.<
& i cant wait for it to end so i can go genting and meet tiantian and meet laoren.
oh ya.. laoren coming back soon OMGGGG!
:D

2010-08-27T02:16:00.002+08:00

wednesday.
pig suddenly come woodland even thou he end work late, without telling me.
after reaching home for less than 10 mins, he then told me he reaching cwp -.-
it's about 10pm when we met..
& we left about 1030pm.
LOL

quite dumb =x
but awwwww so cute
HAHA.
<3

2010-08-24T02:13:00.003+08:00

i hate quarreling.
& i've never have the intention to start one.
so i would rather keep quiet and kinda of 生闷气 instead of saying it out, even thou im not v pleased with something
which in ur eyes, u called it 'guailan'.
blehs.

even though
we end the day by quarreling -.-

but still,
thanks for tolerating me for the past 9 months.
& never give up in the beginning when we first started,
which i know was a tough period for you.
handling your health and a very bad gf like me =x
thanks for holding on and show me that everything gonna get better,
& i'm glad that it did. (:

loveyou.
<3

2010-08-22T22:30:00.002+08:00

erm. being petty is bad.
i dont care what's de reason is.
i hate the feeling.
i dont have to convince myself..
it's just bad~

i rather dont care..
& i hope i can really heck care.
i should returned back to what's it like in the beginning.

negative feelings should just go away.
try.. try..

2010-08-19T03:26:00.002+08:00

met tian and visit jaysea (:
awww miss jaysea alottt hahahas. din get to see her since tian moved.
erm anyway, jaysea is a dog.
cute dog =p
and yeah, rotted at tian's house for a few hours not feeling awkward at all.
that's laopengyou LOL!!

went to find thong and ivy after meeting pig.
gosh i have been going to east for 2 days~
pig spent about one hour choosing his earphone -.-
& yay i got a purple earphone (:
and i cant believe that im so damn careless that i lost the earphone pouch only after a few hours ):
heex. thanks pig =p

i think thong's dad is damn nice.. hahas.
he longbang-ed me about 3 times alr.
& think the way he nag at thong is damn funny =x

it's 4am soooon!
and im still wide awake -.-
arghhh. >.<~

2010-08-17T00:26:00.002+08:00

went bowling with thong, first time trying out and erm..
conclusion i got at the end of the day is that bowling is so not for me hahas..
i can hear the sound of coins dropping whenever the ball washed the drain.

i rather watch pig play (:

Ate sakae sushi with her, first time also.
and ermm.. i think i will not eat sushi for at least a week, and i will never go for sushi buffet anymore.. get so sick of all the rice >.<~

YAY!
meeting tian and LJ tml..
LONG TIME NO SEE THEM LE <3

2010-08-13T02:20:00.002+08:00

watch leehom's movie today,
de plot is like damn simpleeee~
it's de music and songs that make this movie not too bad.
i love the parts where the co perform.
brought me back to jc time when erhu ban hide behind de stage when yjco was practising for syf.
oh well~

anyway, i love my life now LOL.
sleep late, wake up late, went out, watch videos, stayover at ah yi house, chat on msn with many peoples, stone at facebook page, nua on bed, listen to 933 blah blah :D
but omg~ haven touch anything related to studies for now LOL

and~
i dunno how and when i hurt my spine or whatever-u-call-that-area, i have problem trying to sit straight or lean against the chair or turn my body and BLAHS.
im damn reluctant to change my posture whenever i sat down.
i feel damn old like so old ah ma who has problem with her bones and body and all.
ARGH hate it HAHAS.

2010-08-09T01:56:00.003+08:00

life pretty good without projects and school (:
and gosh, i haven even start my 2 reflections which due on TUESDAY.
i cant seem to convince myself that it's suppose to be a study break now,
not holiday =x

Watched Airbender with pig on sat.
NICE MOVIEEEEEE (:
i still insist tat i dont get angry easily.
i get XL, because u LL to me first.
& it kinda pissed me off.
but im still very nice okay HAHAHAHA

pig was asleep (i suppose), like finally, after complaining he cant get to slp.
this is like one of the very few times im still awake after he went to bed,
and this is the time i realised that im so used to sms him everyday, from day to day.
hmmm, good or bad? hahas.

& i just feel that life is so amazing.
just one decision, & it can change ur life almost completely.
it brings u from one stage to another, before u can even realised it.
it like attending lessons where you get to learn different things.
hahas, anyway..
iloveyou.

i love you still, women. (:

2010-08-07T01:05:00.002+08:00

i saw this old uncle in kopitiam yesterday.
& immediately, i tot of my ahgong.
Cos the way the uncle sit, look exactly like him.

the way he hold his cigaratte,
the way he fold his legs,
the way he look down at his feet.

i cant help but keep looking at him until he change his posture.

cos i miss my ahgong, sitting at a corner like this.
which i noe,
wont possibly happen again in my life.

i shld go and visit my ahgong sometime this week again,
i think he miss me too. (:

PT

2010-08-06T23:23:00.002+08:00

after the IP presentation ytd, we finally can declared ourselves free from PROJECTS and PRESENTATIONS. my god
It's quite a experience to be presenting in a meeting room of a hotel..
but ermm.. nope, i dun wan to try again.HAHAS.

anyway
love love my group for this sem (:
2 dearies, 1 women and 1 bro which made up this group
it's like wonderful :D
关关难过关关过！is what we mumble and console ourselves EVERYDAY.

THANKS EVERYONE FOR THE EFFORTS AND ALL THE LAUGHTER WE SHARED (:
this sem gonna be a hell without u guys, and i mean it (:
at least u guys create a reason why i resist my sleepy bug and still go to sch for lessons, and making the hours in school alot less painful.
& yeah, it will make up most of the memorable time in np.

i believe everything happen for a reason.
& i know that it's true (:

love u guys <3

2010-08-05T00:45:00.003+08:00

okay, it's not the best time to blog actually, with a final year project presentation tml at some raffles convention center shit.

but well, i have to blog and i guess it wont take me too long.

anyway, i have to blog now cos the next time i on my laptop again, i will be in SUPER HOLIDAY MOOD alr.
my mood now is oh' so complicated.
it's like gosh-i-dont-want-tml-to-come-im-so scare and a mixture of oh-tml-faster-come-cos-it's-holiday!
i guess only we know what we feel LOL

anyway, im completely shocked by STMO Abacus test when everything i type just went PROOF** and gone. =.=
but yeah, i think practising every lesson does help, at least i managed to type everything in within that horror 6 minutes, when it took me more than 20 minutes normally to do so.

&& pretty glad that i meet pig today even though the whole evening my mind is like 'omg my script not done and meeting at 930pm' LOL
and i actually left my wallet in his bag which i din realised until he called me.
and he have to travel all the way to my house to give it back to me :D

OH YEAH!
good commercial break from script..
& it's time to go back.
GOOD LUCK TO ME!

it spell HOLIDAY! :D

*im chua sai-ing within me*

2010-08-02T21:14:00.002+08:00

people say time flies..

indeed, it fly.

but no matter how

i gonna remember you, forever.

i gonna remember that fateful day, 9 month ago.

it's a nightmare,

a bad bad dream.

which i will not be able to wake up from it.

ahgong,

imissyou.

2010-08-01T23:34:00.001+08:00

我看着镜子后面皱着眉的我
很孤单他有话想说
像天空不会永远是蓝色的
有阴天你才会抬头
走穿多少的伤痛
笑了哭了、
有三四个人爱我
我想要一个忘了数字的时钟
我想做一个完全相反的我
我在这个世界拼命些什么
累死我

我有双不听任何命令的耳朵
却享受快乐加上自由的我
我要变成一颗透明的石头
我不会动也不会痛

2010-08-01T01:19:00.003+08:00

GOSH my desktop is FLOODED with schoolwork -.-
i dun really dare to delete anything away, just in case i delete the wrong file den GG liao.
and ya.. the 2 potato-look-alike-creature is CUTE :D

I'm trying very hard to do my proposal for BCOMM now, which is a PAIN!
goshhh~ why the heck i have to write a REAL proposal for a DINNER AND DANCE! -.-
i think all the poly tutors are out of their mind.

Anyway..
i can smell FREEDOM.. :D
after next week!!!!

but before that, i think i will chua sai for quite a few time.
ROARRRR.

ily(:

2010-07-30T23:41:00.002+08:00

okay, we the dream team actually managed to finish up our report ON TIME.
and this time round, quite early in the sense that everything was quite nicely done on time.
i love you guys (:

--------

anyway, i think one of the plus point when you get older is that you learn to be more appreciative of everyone around you.
those you love and care.
and those who love and care about you.

yupps.
i'm not going to name ppl but well those are people who..
willing to help you unconditionally when u need help,
willing to give you a pat on your shoulder when you think that you are not that good,
willing to take the effort to remember what u said..
willing to cheer you on when you feel really helpless..
and those who wish the best for u (:

im a very blissful person indeed,
with all the great friends ard me,
i've found the best team who are also the best pals,
i get to grow up in a family full of laughter and love,
& a pig who willing to spent money to spam sms me everyday. LOL
maybe bcos i 上辈子烧好香做好人 haha!

and surprisingly,
you feel so much happier when u appreciate everything ard u.
(:

anyway...
my aunt dreamt abt my ahgong.
he was asking my aunt for kopi, which was his favourite.
& when we talked abt that, we cant help but smiled and laughed.
he can never fail to make us smile,
cos he's such a nice and loving person.

argh, ah gong i miss you.
i love you.
i miss your smile.

2010-07-29T20:29:00.003+08:00

WISP presentation down oso!
WOOHOOOO!

Dearie pei me go take passport photo using the machine jus now,
the machine will take 2 photos and u can choose the nicer one.
My 2nd picture like LOL!~ my expression look as if im STUNNED by the machine, when actually.. im not LOL
& we laughed like hell inside the machine after looking at my face LOL.

i bought a container of HELLO PANDA home (:
hello panda is like our best friend in school, cos we alway munch on it when we doing projects.
& it's a way of showing love to each other LOL
cos we will buy each other hello panda <33

okay,
last last report to be done.
CIAOS

2010-07-28T20:07:00.002+08:00

YAY! 2 presentation down up till now.
Waking up at 6am is like torturing us..
i seriously wondered how i managed to wake up on time everyday thoughout my secondary school life.
hmmmmm, maybe cos im younger MUHAHA

managed to reach home early,
and napped for 3 hours :D
very happy eh! HAHA

okay, we are 2 days away from the deadline for recommendations,
let's see how we are able to work miracle, once again >.<~

2010-07-28T00:56:00.002+08:00

1 presentation down!..
another one in less than 8 hours time.
Jiayous!

PS:
Inception damn niceeee (:
thou abit chim HAHAS.
but yupps,
got content and everything..
i like (:

2010-07-26T00:29:00.002+08:00

weiting is like damn cute.
she keep thinking that im emo even though my msn to her look so cheerful with all de LOL and HAHAHS.
oh well, im okay my dear hahas.

this week gonna be a HORROR.
like an extremely terrifying HORROR with like 3 persentations and 1 report to submit.

u just need that little thing, to ruin ur whole day.

there is alway 2 sides to everything,
u got ur reasons, others got their reasons too.
i cant really tell whether who are correct and all.
Whatever it is,
the intention of everything is nothing bad,
just to avoid more troubles and doubts.
& that's all.

dont make promises,
when u urself cant even control ur own decision.
it's like slapping ur own face.

2010-07-24T23:33:00.002+08:00

i love going out with my family (:
strolled around in cwp with my ah yi, ah ma they all.
talk crap w them.
It's de time i dont even think about schoolwork.
or any other things.

awwww i got a very happy, simple, lively and young family.
<3333333

2010-07-23T23:55:00.003+08:00

Like finally, it's weekend.

the school is draining each and everyone of us, mentally and physically.
deariee failed to wake up for school days ago even though i spammed her 13 missed calls, when she finally picked up my call on the 14th call, it's alr 2 hr after our meeting time.
she's tired eh! hahas.

there are like thousands of things to do for next week,
& the thought of it make us feel so suffocated.
Why cant the lecturers see the fact that we are ALL human, who only has 24 hours a day.
Morever, we are YOUNG HUMAN and we need A LIFE.
Or maybe they think that we are only doing their one and only project when the fact is that.. we have abt 7 projects to handle at a time. -.-

im a totally lifeless soul now who travel to school in order to get everything done and over with.

i'm so sorry that im so whiny about my life and everything.
gosh, i cant believe that im saying this again, but i hate my schoollife now.
my aunt just called and complain that i dint go find her this week, but god noes that i HOPE that i can go if i can.
EWWWWW~

anyway,
met pig ytd and he completely ruined his xing xiang LOL.

2010-07-21T23:03:00.002+08:00

the person who is closer to me, will always be the one suffering the most cos of my temper.
so..
maybe the best way is to stay away from me when im not in my best mood.

argh.
sorry ba >.<~

2010-07-21T21:37:00.002+08:00

so tired of everything..

especially whenever i thought of presentations & projects & tests lining up for the next few weeks.
just like what weiting have been saying,
i hate my life, like seriously.

how i hope i can just go to sleep now and when i wake up the next day, everything's over.
ARGHHHHHHHH!
i want everything to end SOON >.<~

i hate presentations,
i hate doing projects,
i hate going to school,
i miss my friends,
i miss my cousins &
i miss my ahgong.

but thank god for the buddies in school which make life abit better..
i got 2 dearies who travel to and fro with me everyday,
women & bro who are creating jokes everyday.
(:

argh.
i still hate my life, with schoolwork
ROARRRRR~

2010-07-19T10:49:00.003+08:00

when u gained some,
u tend to lose some.

--

i miss my friends ):
awwwwww..
stupid school
>.<~

2010-07-18T14:32:00.002+08:00

it's sunday~~~
& it's rainy day.

i feel bad for nt going down to support pig for his competition!
but somehow it's 心有力而力不足..
anyway,
jiayous! (:
Just do ur best and have fun there (:

2010-07-18T01:20:00.003+08:00

realised had been spending too much on food,

time to be more budget eh, pig? LOL

Watched Despicable Me.

i like the yellow creatures which look like potato!

SO CUTEEEEEE.

Thanks alot to serene & mw :D

they are niceeeeeeee ppl HAHAS.

we shall go CHEESECAKE when we are FREE from projects!

2010-07-16T17:12:00.003+08:00

YAY!
happy today. lol

cos it's a friday!
&& finally went island creamery.
&&& we had a very productive discussion for RMTR project (:
i guess it's because we are super unwilling to meet for project on weekend and would rather finish our stuff today so we can slack and work at our comfort at home.

even thou din get to meet pig
i'm going dinner wif family later <33

:D:D:D

2010-07-16T00:00:00.002+08:00

IT'S FRIDAY!
i LOVE LOVE friday (:
Cos it's spell W.E.E.K.E.N.D

im so sick of school,
i wake up every morning & spend about 3 mins of my life considering should i pon lesson anot HAHAS.
even though i will still crawl out of my bed RELUCTANTLY.

I STILL HATE SCHOOL.
ROARRRRR >.<~

2010-07-15T11:24:00.002+08:00

不管昨天你对我说过了什么
今天的我还是依然依然沉默
两个人生气着
看着谁先舍不得
何必这样来试探我们的缘份
不管昨天我对你说过了什么
今天的你还是依然依然自我
问这要到什么时候
才会觉得无法忍受
难道这样才证明爱得有多深
所以爱有几分
这是你不停的疑问
你的心里对我有多认真
何必执着在我的部分

所以爱有几分
这是你永远的疑问
只有最后一切才有定论

saw this song lyric on tian's blog.
show luo's 几分

i never actually play attention to the lyric whenever i listen to that song.
but well,
now i did.

hmmmmmm,
i like the lyric (:

2010-07-15T10:15:00.002+08:00

IS class again -.-
anyway, just finish our presentation.
MUHAHA.
not too bad, for the fact that we din even meet for the project LOL

IS damn boringggggggggg -.-

had dinner last night at beauty world.
the stall there bust OLD SCH CHEENA SONG.
something like WO DENG ZHE NI HUI LAI kinda of song HAHAHAHAHAH!
& i keep smiling till the stall uncle tot i kisiao,
when it's de songs that is funny LOL

my bursery is not here yet! ):
dearie serene alr GOT IT.
hello? im damn poor & i should be getting the money loh!
needa call up and askkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
$.$

2010-07-15T00:12:00.002+08:00

gosh dpm presentation later.
but well,
din really prepared =x

reached home at abt 1045pm.
i start being panick when im not infront of my laptop by 10pm when i got stuff to do.
HAHA.

i dont like the feeling being in a stranger environement.
i just feel out of place and it's something more than feeling awkard.
but well,
i always remember my OBS instructor said that,
'we have to step out of our comfort zone, in order to learn'

i've got a very small circle of comfort zone eh? hahas.

给15岁的自己 - 刘若英

2010-07-14T11:58:00.003+08:00

知道吗我总是惦记
十五岁不快乐的你
我多想把哭泣的你
搂进我怀里
不确定自己的形状
动不动就和世界碰撞
那些伤我终于为你
都一一抚平
那一年最难的习题
也不过短短的几行笔记
现在我却总爱回忆
回忆当时不服输的你
天空会不会雨停会不会放晴
会不会幸福在终点等着我和你
会不会是我忘记还能勇敢地去淋雨

我们继续走下去继续往前进
继续走向期待中的未知旅行
感觉累了的时候抱着我们的真心
静静好好地休息

这些年我还算可以
至少都对得起自己
谢谢你是你的单纯
给了我指引
遇见过很多很多人
完成了一些些事情
你一定还无法想象
多精彩过瘾
谁说人生是公平的
它才不管我们想要怎样
很感激你那么倔强
我才能变成今天这样
看这条路肯让我们走到哪里
我们想去的地方一定也有人很想去
我们都不要放弃都别说灰心
永远听从刻在心中那些声音
感觉累了的时候请你把我的手握紧
没有地图人生只能凭着手上的梦想 oh~
循着它的光曲折转弯找到有光的地方
lalala lalala lalala 那年的梦想
lalala lalala lalala 人要有梦想
勇敢的梦想疯狂的梦想
继续走下去继续往前进
路旁有花心中有歌天上有星
我们要去的那里一定有最美丽的风景
都不要放弃都别说灰心
不要辜负心里那个干净的自己
痛到想哭的时候就让泪水洗掉委屈
我们要相信自己永远都相信
来到这个世界不是没有意义
我们做过的事情都会留在人心里
会被回忆而珍惜
有一天我将会老去
希望你会觉得满意
我没有对不起那个
十五岁的自己

2010-07-13T21:37:00.002+08:00

went thru the attachment interview,
& frankly speaking, i think i din did very well in it =p
my sixth sense are telling me that i will not going to be able to get thru!
(Okay, i can sense weiting diao-ing me LOL)
But well, im all prepared for all these, include going USS with my 2 deariees (:
which i think is FUN too. haha!
we shall just wait and see how.

Anyway,
TRMK report submitted today.
YAY! (:

The MRT journey from school to airport is far.
The bus journey from airport to woodland is DAMN FAR.
OMG, we take about 2 hrs to reach home zzzz
Weiting and me almost went lala on bus & keep yawning until our jaws almost dropped.
OH YA.
Thong is damn chio today~ winkwink
hahahahs.

argh~
im so sick of tutorialsss!
>.<..

2010-07-12T23:11:00.004+08:00

twenty, doesnt seem to be very old.
but somehow,
there is still some changes when u grow older eh?

Ytd stayed up till 530am plus to watch world cup & woke up at 11am.
Now..
i am so tired until i want to die LOL

Interview for attachment at Changi Airport tml.
Wish me best of the luck!
(: